Early morning beach walks, runs, and swims are my favorite contemplative time. When I search the sand for images as I work towards my goals. Kids sleeping, animals going about their day to day lives, and me thinking.... about the present.... future.... about the secrets of the Universe. Time I completely cherish... loving the moments.... wishing for answers and as time passes the answers present themselves. This summer is about absorbing my current reality. Learning the new steps towards that means. Watching my children take wing.... progressing towards their destiny. I am amazed at the time that has passed.
At moments that come to an end. End of a school year, end of time at a school, end of moments each second. Loving those moments as markers of age and progression towards the future.
Each human life is so individual... like fingerprints.
On Friday July, 19, my boyfriend's (the love of my life because he is...that someone like him exists., father passed to the Universe.
Lives changing, ending, others moving forward.
The mourning process of loosing a 76 year old man who was a beautiful, accomplished woodworker, a loving husband, a hunter and provider extraordinaire, an excellent adoptive and most nurturing parent, a man who made a difference to my beautiful boyfriend, to his family and the lives of 3 children from different families and 2 grandchildren. A man who was an inspiration of hard work and integrity.
A man I got to know briefly on a visit of 3 days last summer. Who has forever changed my life by making a difference in Ted's. Molding a man of integrity, ethics, and substance. Teaching him the trade of plumbing in the family business and then encouraging him to make his own way. To become a Doctor of Chiropractic Medicine, allowing him to leave the nest... to pursue his dreams. To be selfless. To be honorable and to love with everything he had and to let go. Good people with high moral standards are so valuable.
I am cherishing the moments, am thankful for Ness' three summer camp experiences, Gabrielle's varied work experiences and new job she is starting in 2 minutes, for Ted's time at his home in Ontario with his family, and for my time to reflect and process.
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